Sunday, March 28, 2010

Carlo





Words can't can't begin to describe how much this man means to me. He's my best friend and lover. The last 12 years have been so much. He is an amazing father and never ceases to amaze me.

He's talented, humble, funny, sweet, compassionate, and tender. He takes superb care of me and boys. Not just as a provider, but he is our priest, our confidante, our teacher, mentor, sounding board, and strong shoulder. Who could ask for more? I know I couldn't.


Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Remembering

Today all across the country people are drinking, pinching, using horrible Irish brogues, and so many other things in homage to St. Patrick's Day. Me? I'll have on a green and white polo, I'll do a devotion on the legend of St. Patrick, and I'll whisper a happy birthday.

You see, 7 years ago today our twin daughters, Chloe Suzanne and Alexis Pearl were delivered. They were still-born at 37 weeks, a thought that is still mind-boggling. I won't go into gory details, suffice it to say, my body was shutting down and I was dying so my body fought against "the foreign invaders" that were causing the problems. To say my family was devastated wouldn't do justice to our actual feelings. 37 weeks of expectancy, for me a dream coming true, so many things crashed down on us and it was hard.

I praise God that He healed my body and promised us our precious David. Without the Lord, I never would have made it through my recovery or the subsequent year Carlo spent in Iraq. His grace and mercy are good. My memories of the labor and delivery process are very fuzzy. I remember all the wonderful people from the church who were in the hospital with us, I remember the the girls being born, but I don't have any clear memories, until the nurses brought my precious babies over for me to see and hold. They were gorgeous!! The were feminine versions of their big brother, Tony. They had heads full of black hair I'm sure would curl. Both had their bottom lips sucked in and looked so peaceful.

It took me a couple of years to care about St. Patrick's Day again, but I have slowly started caring about wearing green again and making a nod to my Irish roots. I still whisper a happy birthday to my baby girls though and look forward with anticipation to the day we'll all be reunited.

Monday, March 8, 2010

I confess...
I get really frustrated praying for people who don't truly follow the Lord and live a psuedo religious lifestyle. It's hard to pray for God's will to be done when people are living in direct contradiction to His Word.
Please understand that this is a bit of a rant, because I pray for people the people I have in mind as I write this. What do I pray? That first and foremost they have a real and personal encounter with Jesus so that they can be called His in spirit and in truth. Then I pray for the situations they are in because I never know, those very situations might be the thing God chooses to use to reveal himself to the person.
Okay, I'm done.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Why??

I don't get why people make a big deal about something and then totally ignore what they made a big deal about. Not necessarily hypocrisy, but you know to bring up something that bothers them or hurts them that you've done, but then they turn around and prove the point of why you've done that particular something.

Just a thought.

I know, very random and vague but hey, my blog is titled, "Random Thoughts from Me" for a reason.